I have been putting myself out there for quite some time now, taking risks, being vulnerable, asking for support & trying to gain some kind of traction. Most of my efforts have been online with the creation & marketing of my brand & books. But also in person at jobs I've worked over the years, I have managed to garner some attention & short-lived support. I am no stranger to rejection, radio silence & empty promises. It's been mostly an uphill battle riddled with disappointments. Media, pomp & circumstance make the challenges look charming & success seem inevitable.
Well, let me be the first to tell ya... I have been sharpening my manifestation skills for a LONG time... & things don't always work out the way you expect them to. God, do I wanna scream, & punch sh*t or run away sometimes. But, I've decided instead, begrudgingly as it may be, to not let what IS thus far... shrink me, stop me or deter me from moving in the direction of what sets my soul on fire.
In the past 6 months, my day job as a Brand Ambassador placed me back in the mix of a buzzing society interacting with every demographic. I couldn't help but notice that everyone who meets me roots for me. I come across as an endearing character, like an underdog in a good movie. I am engaging & easy to vibe with. I know how to demonstrate unconditional love.
Sometimes I just wanna indulge in temporary highs... like too much cake or a boozy buzz. Then I remember the heavy-laden consequences, I refrain from feeding the thought & I make the executive decision to move on. That's how it's done. It's not rocket science.
Mindset, discipline, willingness to change, pivot & progress forward, are all it takes to improve as a human. Take yourself out of the old patterns, habits & programs that made you more flawed & prone to suffering... & move yourself into new ways of thinking, behaving & believing that compel you to feel lighter, brighter, freer & more at ease than ever before. It's a choice. It's high time to lead yourself to the promised land. Ya think? No one is gonna shoot from the sky & do it for you. You have a CHOICE.
The choice is yours
If I were you, I would choose a soul-led life, & let your ego retreat from whence it came. It came from B.S. (False Belief Systems) created by a society & system that brainwashed the collective & us as individuals & our families. Thus, we all have unconsciously allowed indoctrination to fester & wreak havoc generation upon endless generation.
I am done
It's over for me. Maybe also for you, dear reader? I can only speak for myself. I'm no longer feeding into the matrix. It's a sham, scam & lie that keeps everyone obsessed, seduced, swindled, stupified & stuck... fat, sick, sad, tired, desensitized, struggling, seething, suffering, & separated. I CHOOSE LIFE. Not "death & taxes".
What do you choose?